Sunday, November 13, 2011
2 points away. A GC post.
I know that grades should not define someone and how one is at school may be the total opposite of what one becomes in the work place.
Today, i've calculated my qpi. Something I've ignored doing for 3 semesters now because I've started to falter in law school. The thing which bothers me most in law school is how people think I'm all that like when Ricca says "yung one reading mo, memorize na sa kin" or when ana say "you're gonna be a bar bet" (yeah right. as if).
What I hate about it is how I find myself in a position where I do not deserve their academic respect. If any, I'm a wreck just waiting for that mistake which would totally send me off course. (hopefully not this particular law course). I cry when I don't meet my personal expectations and I have to cry a little bit more because people still think good of me and will not believe me even when I admit that things are not going well at all. I get replies of "sus... eh magaling ka naman" or "eh sabi ng iba matalino ka raw." I will make it clear. I hate getting that. I hate it when my reality is something less glossy than how others see it. It is harder to make mistakes this way. I feel more sad, more off track.
Honestly, this sem. I'll just add to my spiral downwards.
Julianne blogged at 4:55 PM
